7 posts tagged “humboldt”

I was surprised I got so much as one award, so it's an understatement to say that I was shocked to get three awards. Honestly, if people could see in my head, I don't think they'd be so easy to give me awards. Mrs Nic giving me that Biology award felt kind of good, seeing as I really am interested in it and I like to understand it, though it's more likely because I was nice to her than because she recognized my fairly secretive but genuine interest.

Art club and tech I expected. It seems like the few things I do invest my time in, the results are tangible. It makes me feel better about myself, though I can only wonder how long into summer until the doubt creeps back in.

Tomorrow's Disneyland. I'm actually kind of glad to be on the blue bus, because I do have Phoebe to hang out with and I also discovered that Lizzie and Nick Paris are on the blue bus too, so I figure we can just form a geek squad in the back against all the cool people, even though Phoebe and Lizzie are probably cooler than Nick and I. I kind of wish we could have gone to Great America instead, because they actually have sick rides, but whatever. A senior trip is a senior trip.

What's funny is there were a few mix ups today with getting a yearbook, and when I eventually got one my mom was all surprised. She said she didn't ever pay for one, even though I swear I remember her texting me saying she did.. Anyways, that's super chill if I got one for free. :3

In other news, I'm excited for Humboldt!! I want to start a countdown, but I don't really have time to count the calendar right now. I should probably pack for Disneyland.

It's weird to think it's all over. I was just getting used to being a senior, and in a little over a week I'm not even going to be a high schooler anymore. Today I said to Lucas, "Hey, next year we're both going to be freshman!" and he laughed.

First of all, fuck yes! I am so ready to be done with this. Unbelievably ready. I think I was ready halfway through sophomore year. I'm not going to cry at graduation because I'm sorry but, I really didn't have fun in high school. I mean, freshman year was a roller coaster ride - scary, but fun in a thrilling way. Then I killed it during the summer, and no year of high school could ever compete. Sophomore year was okay. Cross country was fun that year and I did actually feel like I still had people I could trust and that liked me. Junior year was basically terrible, because on top all the tests and college prep pressures, I had a bunch of social drama to deal with which resulted in a big loss of trust in humankind altogether. So this year I've kept from getting attached. I viewed everything as if through the eyes of an observer, and really filtered out a lot of my emotions in place for logic. Logic works. I love it now.

Senior year itself wasn't so bad, but it really wasn't amazing either. I just did a lot of wisting for the past and craving for the future. There are individuals who have made this year tolerable and even something enjoyable - Maria, Akiko, Mica, Elliot are who I think of off the top of my head. The things I am going to remember fondly are trips to the city with my asians, practically living in the darkroom and partying with the photo kids on wednesdays and planting subliminal messages about megatron all throughout the classroom, going to ihop after musicals..

I'm so excited for Humboldt. I say it everyday, but I think about it everyday. I already know exactly where my room is, and I've actually found the facebooks of a few of the guys in the suite next to ours. I can't wait to live with my peers, to be able to go on runs in redwood forests whenever I want, to meet new people, to see the McKinnon clan whenever I want, to have a laptop, to take classes I care about, to be independent!

In other news, I'm totally exhausted and I still have that essay from hell (aka Berb's class) to write. Uggga.

It's weird to think it's all over. I was just getting used to being a senior, and in a little over a week I'm not even going to be a high schooler anymore. Today I said to Lucas, "Hey, next year we're both going to be freshman!" and he laughed.

First of all, fuck yes! I am so ready to be done with this. Unbelievably ready. I think I was ready halfway through sophomore year. I'm not going to cry at graduation because I'm sorry but, I really didn't have fun in high school. I mean, freshman year was a roller coaster ride - scary, but fun in a thrilling way. Then I killed it during the summer, and no year of high school could ever compete. Sophomore year was okay. Cross country was fun that year and I did actually feel like I still had people I could trust and that liked me. Junior year was basically terrible, because on top all the tests and college prep pressures, I had a bunch of social drama to deal with which resulted in a big loss of trust in humankind altogether. So this year I've kept from getting attached. I viewed everything as if through the eyes of an observer, and really filtered out a lot of my emotions in place for logic. Logic works. I love it now.

Senior year itself wasn't so bad, but it really wasn't amazing either. I just did a lot of wisting for the past and craving for the future. There are individuals who have made this year tolerable and even something enjoyable - Maria, Akiko, Mica, Elliot are who I think of off the top of my head. The things I am going to remember fondly are trips to the city with my asians, practically living in the darkroom and partying with the photo kids on wednesdays and planting subliminal messages about megatron all throughout the classroom, going to ihop after musicals..

I'm so excited for Humboldt. I say it everyday, but I think about it everyday. I already know exactly where my room is, and I've actually found the facebooks of a few of the guys in the suite next to ours. I can't wait to live with my peers, to be able to go on runs in redwood forests whenever I want, to meet new people, to see the McKinnon clan whenever I want, to have a laptop, to take classes I care about, to be independent!

In other news, I'm totally exhausted and I still have that essay from hell (aka Berb's class) to write. Uggga.

So I got an 80/80 on my ELM, which really just shows that it was kind of pointless for me to take. It makes me happy, though.

I'm super excited for Humboldt. I have my dorm in Cypress, which are the most awesomest because they're basically mini-houses and you don't have to share a bathroom with a whole row of rooms, just with your house mates. I'm ready to move in today. This might be the first summer I actually want to be shorter!

One thing I can't decide on is whether I should bring Sly or my fish tank. I've kept fish for a long time now and I like having a fish tank to look at, but the reality is that it'll be a pretty big hassle when I leave for breaks and stuff like that. Sly, on the other hand, will be really easy to transport. As long as I give him something to bury in and keep warm, I could practically transport him in my pocket. Plus he can go a long while without eating and his tank requires hardly any care.

I guess I just decided it for myself. It's a bummer, because while I'm gone it's likely that my family will just let my fish tank die and fall to pieces, but ah well. I doubt I'll get a dorm sophomore year, and so I can always keep a fish tank in whatever apartment I rent.

Another thing I'd like to do is Humboldt has a bunch of these outdoor trips before school starts. One I'm looking into is a weekend where we'd kayak out to a campsite and spend the night. It's only $70, and they rent all the equipment and stuff. Like, that's awesome. I'm just kind of scared that I'll sign up and because I don't know anyone I'll get really shy and quiet. I wish it was more easy for me to be confident.

In other news, school still sucks. For the past few days I'd had this really gut-wrenching nervous feeling, due to how behind I am in school and the lurking threat of losing credits, but looking forward and focusing on what's to come has made me feel better. I can't wait for summer, but more than that, I can't wait to be in college. :]

Today was nice. I came home, laid around, went to the pool, took a cold shower, took a nap.. I've been dying for this kind of day forever. For something I didn't have fun doing, drama took a lot of my time. I have to remember not to get into anymore shitty classes or things like that in college. I'm such an idealist, I can look at any situation and imagine it better, so a lot of the time I forget to be real and look at it as it probably will be.
 
It's been so freaking hot lately.. It gives me tons of summer nostalgia, like the smell of sunscreen does. I want to go to the river and jump off cliffs with my cousins and drive through the redwood trees with the windows rolled down listening to the Talking Heads. I love those times more than anything. It's a big reason why I'm going to Humboldt, why I can get over the fact that I'm going to be the only straight-edge person up there, because I just love the area and the family I have there.

There's a few things I want to do over the summer. First and foremost, I want a job. I'm really not a heavy spender, but I hate asking my parents for money when I do need things. I'd rather spend my own money on my things than ask them for money at times.

Next, I'm going to take Jap at COM over the summer. I've had to wait like, a billion years to get the chance, but I finally get to. I need something to keep me off my ass and not sleeping in and turning into a couch potato. Hopefully it won't be too scary hard. I'm just interested in it for fun, really, I don't care too much about memorizing billions of characters.

On top of that, I'm hoping to lose some weight. It's important for me to stay focused. A lot of the time I'll start working on it, lose 5 pounds, feel accomplished and then get too high on my success and stop really trying.

Anyways, I can't sit in this room anymore. It's too hot. I can't handle this climate.

Every time I get a day off, I don't get anything done. It's kind of weird. I bitch and moan about how much more I would do if I had the time, but when it comes down to it more time never equals more productive activity. So I've decided the best thing I can do is to keep myself busy. Somehow on those especially long days with school and tech, the motivation to get through it seems to carry over enough for me to actually do homework and cleaning and other strange things. Not to mention it makes me value the little down time I did get a lot more.

I want to get a job. Key word: want. I don't necessarily need one to survive at this point, and so I'm a bit lazy on actually getting one. However, I have the time and it wouldn't hurt to start saving up now if I'm thinking about studying abroad in college later.

This summer, I'd like to take classes at COM. I recently have been looking into Philosophy as a major, and it sounds perfect for me. There's no one career I'd be limited to, and it leaves me a lot of options for graduate school. Not to mention I'm big on thinking in theories and talking in circles anyways - you don't have to look far to find a post where I can talk about just ideas for miles and miles. It's interesting to me, and I don't find it necessary to see the cold hard results in real life to understand and enjoy a topic.

I also want to take a class in Astronomy, because it's very interesting to me but I find it's a bit hard to self-teach. The only constellation I've been able to really get down so far is Orion, and the path of the sun and planets, and finding North. What's peculiar is that the classes sync perfectly. Philosophy is 8 to 10:15, and Astronomy is 10:30 to 2. Gotta love what the universe does when you really want something.

It'd be awesome if those credits could go towards my degree at Humboldt, too. Assuming I could put Astronomy as an elective or something, that'd mean I could allow myself a freshman year taking only 3 classes. Then again, that might be against the rules or something... They probably have a minimum credit requirement for enrolled students.

Anyways, that's just me thinking out loud. Which I do a lot, especially when I'm at home. And then I'll be telling myself some story or reminder, and I turn the corner and one of my brother's friends will be sitting there with a total 'wtf' look on his face. My life..

Today was great. It started slow because I was pissed about how much the people in my car pulled everything apart last night, but I got over it. What's funny is I usually block Elliot in with my car, but I was angry when I pulled in, so I didn't. When they asked why I didn't I told him that, and I don't think anyone really understood. Makes sense to me though!

I think I'd like to be an RA when I get to college. Not freshman year obviously, but later on. It seems it would be fun. I like being in positions where I'm needed and looked to for help - it makes me feel like I have more purpose in my life.

I like how Gerardo told me that he thinks when I go to Humboldt, I'm going to become a total stoner. It's like, if I've managed through high school where 75% of my friends smoked, I think I can make it through college. It's just something I'm not going to do. I don't need any help to be happy and enjoy my life. I mean, unless you hit me on the head and completely reversed my values (which are set in stone btw, despite how flaky I may appear on the outside), it's just not going to happen.

Tomorrow's Monday. I am so going to make tomorrow the best day ever, and I'm gonna be productive and love it. I think I say that every Monday, but whatever, even better! Ready set go!