Hm.

I seem to go through interest phases throughout my life. They last a few weeks each. Some stick with me, such as being a vegetarian, while others don't, such as the polyphasic sleep thing I went on and on about a while back. I like to explore the different aspects and options I have in life, I like to learn and I love to grow and change as a person. It's the best feeling to look back and realize how much you've learned and grown in the past year or two or five. Recently I've been really into this personality research done by these scientists named Myers and Briggs.

There are sixteen different personalities, and while that doesn't sound like a lot for the 6 billion people in the world, I guarantee you 100% that one of those personalities will be so much like yourself it'll scare the socks off you. I mentioned it before - I'm INFP. Sometimes I feel like I'm a little ENFP too, but everytime I read that personality description it sounds so much like my mother I want to hurl. And believe me, this need to be unlike my mother goes beyond just some random, rebellious teenager-exclusive emotion. I'm not really a hateful person. I'm critical and outspoken sometimes, sure, but when it comes down to it I'm very forgiving of people. Not Mom though. I used to appreciate her until I learned a few things.

..Anyways, I didn't click Create to write a post about my stupid family.

I've definitely grown out of that stage where you just want to be cool and fresh and the sharpest, most stylish person. Sure, I appreciate looking nice, but beauty is a simpler concept nowadays. I walked into Tilly's today and felt completely out of place. This is going to sound stupid, but it seems like as soon as I cut my hair short, my life went to shit. And it's just been getting worse and worse. I don't believe in fate very much, but it's creepy. I have decided I'm going to grow my hair out. And I'm not going to dye it anymore either. I feel so toxic and chemically fried, stuffed with saturated fats and manufactured sugars, so I popped onto Google today and searched DETOX.

You know what came up most common? Fasting. Western culture is actually a lot more ridiculous than most cultures. It's hard to think about seeing as we were raised here, but despite a lot of people being all pro-life and atheist and vegetarian here, we don't really get it. We know the steps to take, stop eating meat, buy organic food, but I don't think a whole lot of people understand more to it beyond going through the motions. Everyday you bite into a McDonald's burger, your body is building itself with that shit. Your stomach isn't a magician - it can't break down that fat and sugar-saturated crap you call food into the nutrients it needs. I know I'm not one to talk, but at least I'm learning.

What fasting does is breaks down all that crap you've been building up. In lack of food, the energy usually spent digesting is used to break down all of the excess, gross cells in your body. Acne isn't about the right face wash - it's about the toxins in your body. Drinking water helps your skin because it makes it less likely that the toxins you eat with meals will stick and give you those bumps on your face. Of course, fasting for more than one or two days can get intense and really isn't what I'm looking into. I'm not that intense or deep yet.

Anyways. I'm really excited about life. It feels like going to college will be the beginning of my life for real. Hopefully I'll take that chance and get the happiness I failed to in high school.