All was golden when the day met the night.

08 When The Day Met The Night

Panic at the Disco

So, summer is amazing. I'm finally, completely free. I don't have a job, and I don't think Ben Franklin's is ever going to call me back, but whatever.. I'm turning out just like my dad, a lazy hermit, but I can't find the will to care. Who gives a crap if all I do is sit around everyday? I still am writing and doing my typical constant research about random topics, so it's not the same as people who just watch tv all day. Most of my hobbies are fairly intellectual, so I don't feel that bad when I use all of my time on them.

I'm basically just waiting. Part of me thinks that waiting is stupid, that I should go out and sieze the day, live life, love, laugh.. but the dominant part knows that that doesn't always work. Pretending like you're enjoying yourself can definitely help a gloomy mood, but it can't make you like your shitty town anymore than you already do. I can't be passionate about living when I don't like the life I'm in, especially so when I know a life I will enjoy more is on its way.

I've settled to wait. I'm content to just relax and enjoy it. I don't know why I was so rushed to get a job, those few weeks ago. Why did I want a job? Money. Why did I want money? Material items. And what good are those in the end? You buy objects to own them, but in the end they are the ones that own you. I can be happy with what I have, and I am. I don't need to get a job, my parents will still take care of me for now. I'll find something in Arcata or Eureka, but until then I'm going to enjoy these times when I can be completely unemployed and not have to care about it at all.

In other news, I downloaded the new album by Panic at the Disco, and was very surprised by it. It doesn't sound like them at all. I actually went and looked it up to make sure this wasn't some imposter band that I'd downloaded. It's so.. weird. It sounds much more mature, but I can't figure out whether or not it's their doing or their label's doing. I uploaded the song that's most caught my adoration right now - when the day met the night. It's actually really sweet, where the sun and the moon represent two people falling in love. And I think it matches this post well. And Maria, I don't care what you think.. lol. Panic at the Disco is different now! They took the '!' out! >P